Nearly 2 months since my wedding day and many of my friends asked me how's married life, this and that.
Of cos! It is better now. Can say I feel more love from my deary.. hahaha..
Looking forward to Europe Trip. But obviously I am not planning anything, cos I don't know how to..which makes me feel like I am a failure.. :((((
Work.. hmm.. 1 month back, I told my boss that I am planning to quit. And they buy me back. Many people out there think that the company value me that's why they are paying more on me. But who think about how I feel. Sometimes when the boss ask me for a folder, a pen, a glue.. to order this, order that.. I feel like I am just a highly paid admin girl.
Currently, I took up their HR job scope which doesn't exist before. They asked me to apply what I learned from my school to the company. Anyone will know that in real life and in school, what we learn are different. How do I apply when I learn nothing, do not have any experience from real life practice? From the start of 2013, you gave me promise that you want to teach me how to manage people. I don't see that. In 2014, you said that you will teach me what HR is and how HR work. I told you clearly last mth, C1 can never give me what I want in terms of job. They can only give me the reimbursement which anyone on earth will wish to have at my age, with the flexibility the company is allowing me to have.
But, money can't buy you everything.
Today after meeting one of the boss partner, I thinking:
- Should I just leave this job after this year Dec? Go apply for what I want and get the position (a clear position of what I am)
- Should I continue for life and get the maternity leave?
Yes, if I leave I have to start a fresh. No, I will be here unhappily, facing the bosses (which I don't know who is real and who is wearing a mask), facing those kids who don't show respect and everyday thinking of should I change my mentality of them.
Sometimes, I think if I leave this job I will not have all those worries and stress level of managing how to face people who are two-sided. (It's hard)
I like to be myself, I want to be happy and of cos I want to get good return.
I have to learn to let go.
